"Not Giving Up On Life"

It is my own life to live

It is my journey to take

It is my world to explore

But then, along the way i got lost

I got confused which way to go

I suddenly didn't know what to do

Apparently i just gave up

So many different words of wisdom

That made me even more baffled

It has dug me deeper into desolation

It has weakened me and scared me so much

I lost the drive to do better

I don't know what I'm seeing

I simply lost the courage to look straight ahead

Life's remained still, felt numbed

But what i felt wasn't enough yet... 

I tried to walk, but i just walked with out direction

With out goals ahead, all my dreams were gone

In an instant just like that
I let myself die in my comfort zone

It's like I created a bubble world for myself

Was there but i was just like a shadow

I existed but only in the background

'Til one day i realized 

I'm still in the same place

As if time just stopped and so I'm stocked

Others have gone so far in life, but me

The ones behind me before

Are now the ones way ahead of me

Improved and living a better and happy life

I Felt ridiculed as I comprehend my life

Impetuous anger rushed in my thoughts

Thinking I'm still the same, nobody

Disappointed and angry at my own self

I cried and asked myself

How did i let it happened

How have i gone so weak and stupid

When have darkness took over me

Dismayed by what I'm realizing

Tears fell as I reached out to God and pray

Prayed so hard for His forgiveness

For doing nothing and being weak

I'll keep on praying 'Til I see a light ahead.

As I'm trying to move ahead

I promised to myself, God's with me

So I'll never give up this time.