Fear Not Your Own...

Fear not the Distance

But the Longing Feeling,

that Changes and Ruins your mood.

Fear not the Love you feel,

But the Doubts

You let Running through

inside your thoughts.

Fear not the Temptations

and Persuasions of others,

On your better half

But the Lack of Trust

You have for your partner.

Before it may Cause you Trouble,

Don't let your Weakness

Leads you to Breakdown and Fall.

Stop Creating monster within yourself.

Otherwise you will Lose

The Very One,

You're Too Afraid to Lose in the end.

Note: (Late Post) Originally written April 4, 2016

Glimpse of True Love

Leaves may fall,

People may change.

But if Love is True,

it will withstand anything

Just like a tree trunk.

YOU... #Random Thoughts

The way you THINK

Shows who you are

But the way you FEEL

Shows what you are

as a person...

"It's Great While It Last"

It's full of fun,

'Til it's all over.

It's so sweet,

'Til you're hurt.

It's excitingly meaningful,

'Til you're cheated on.

It makes your day complete,

'Til you're ditch to depression.

It adds color to your life,

'Til your tears washes those out.

Makes you the happiest person,

Until you're crying for hours.

Makes you feel like a thousand butterflies

in your stomach,

Until it makes you sick to your head.

It knows no boundaries,

Until you're too fed up to stay on.

It's crazy yet great to be in love

and be loved back in return,

---But 'Til when???

Does it always have to end

or is it possible to last a lifetime?

To be in love is something,

But to stay in love is a commitment.

...For a lifetime of loving someone,

Is the hardest quest of our lives.

And Love seems great,

While it last...

It's not always what's it like...

Look so peaceful,

yet so wild and angry inside.

Seems So near, yet so far...

Projects half full, 

But Half empty as well.

Sounds interesting,

but boring really.

You thought you know more,

But you actually know less.

Just like the silence,

that sounds too loud to bear.

What we see,

isn't always what it seems to be.
Like a simple smile

that makes you think of happiness,

But the eyes, are showing differently.

"Wasted Time is a Wasted Life"

The moment you step on to the track 

that makes you feel unhappy and out of place,

but still chose to stay on it trying to fit in,

It's when your real dreams in life dies.

The longer you keep staying,

the more you dug yourself deeper.

And the harder it is for you to get out 

and move over to the right path you truly belong.

Just by the mere fact of letting yourself 

standing by in a wrong place,

even without a tiny feeling of happiness,

is already considered as the death of the true you.

It's like you are in quicksand

that's sucking your Dreams in life.

As if you're in Hell, and is slowly

killing you deep inside

'Til you forget how it is to truly

Live a life with full of dreams ahead.

And how it feels like to fight

for your them...

And only in this kind of moment,

where your life starts to gloom.

Where you starts to doubt about everything.

It's when you finally think 

you've been lost for while but just

stupid enough to realized it,

and coward enough to pretend that,

Everything is perfectly fine even if it's not at all.

The Uncertainty Beyond

The Uncertainty Beyond what our eyes can't see,
Is what stops us from getting out of our comfort zone.
The Uncertainty Beyond what our brains can't comprehend,
Is the reason of our weakness to move forward,
And face life's challenges
 ahead that we don't know yet for sure.
The Uncertainty Beyond what our heart isn't familiar yet,
Is what holds us from having the connection to what
We supposedly spontaneously feel from our future...

Because In reality, the things that are unfamiliar to us,
The kind of life that we have never lived on yet,
Those events that haven't happened so far,
And too vague to know at the moment,
Are precisely the very ones that matters to us the most.
Those are the powerful forces at the back of our mind,
That naively ruling us how we live on our lives presently.
We normally live our lives now, for the future.
We're not really living a day only for the moment.
Which is so strange and ironic of us how we deal life.
The Uncertainty Beyond scares us that much,
However, our life as we're facing now is for
The Uncertainty Beyond that we will be living by someday.

Love, Simply Complicated!



Love is not the only reason

Why we chose to stay with someone.

 Nor it is the reason why we chose to leave that person.

Sometimes we chose to leave

Plainly because we are coward and stupid.

Coward, to take the risk to fight for the one we truly love.

And stupid enough to think,

That we are not the one meant for the one we love.

On the other aspect,

We chose to stay with someone not because

 We are in love with each other either.

But simply because we're tangled in

With circumstances we can't easily escape from.

Other times, we're staying together with the person

That we don't even love romantically.

For the simple reason, we feel we have no choice

And it seems to be the right thing to do

Even it meant sacrificing our own happiness.

It's sad, but it happens in real life.

And its just how it is for some people.

Our different upbringings and approaches in life,

And the complexity of our thinking

Exudes in our manner on how we love

That's why Love is Simply complicated.

Feeling Hopeless

Suddenly it felt heavy to breathe

as I carry on this journey.

The path got narrow

and the air gets thinner

as the way gets darker and darker.

But i went on still, then i looked back

and it stunned me

I didn't realize our distance

got this far for being so preoccupied

with something else.

What have I done?

When did we create this space between us?

How did we let this happened?

I'm so confused

I thought you were just right behind me.

But I didn't see you no more

I looked around

But i couldn't find you,

Not even your shadow or just a glimpse of you.

The longing of you sets in me

The longing for you, to be with me

aches my heart tremendously

Feels like a wolf voraciously devours me

And ate me alive.

But what could i do

if you're out of sight

And nowhere to be found

Now, I'm missing you.

The Dying Soul, Underneath!

Feigning up a smile upfront
Only to hide the crying soul inside 

Appearing calm and content

Though really fierce and burning
Deep down inside her body

Wants to explode and release all out

But too damn scared to do it

Instead, she keeps on trying
To hold everything in solely

And chose to suck up all the wrath
Even if it's starting to poison her
But still she prefers it that way
Just to escape from confrontation
Of which she doesn't know
How to resolve what's annihilating her
Of which she knows
Others will never understand
Particularly, not even her own self could

So she chose not to face
 what's troubling deep inside
Thinking it's the best thing to do
To deny the real distress inside.
Will maybe ease her

In denial of what's real 

Suppressing the anger inside

Even decided to keep all a secret

For as long as she can

Hoping, perhaps staying naive

Will make everything easy to live by

And eventually it will all go away

And things will be alright
Even if she's aware 
It's far from happening
Unless she'll deal everything

All the negative vibes 
Needs to vanish like a smoke

Before it will suffocate her

But when will it happen

If all the bad energy lives inside of her

Slowly killing her good soul

Like a burning candle

That is slowly melting into nothing.